fandom_muses: Topic 24 - No Consequences

[idontreallyspar]

[locked to all personnel at APO]

I’ve already done it.

I killed Allen Korman…my reasons are various and somewhat complicated, but it all boils down to one thing.

I had to do something to make it all right.

It wasn’t just Korman that killed my wife…it was me. Who I am, what I do…she took the bullet that should have been mine. She died and I was spared, and I don’t know why…I probably never will. But I know I was responsible…and in the life I lead, the work I do, there’s only one real way I know to get justice.

There was only one thing I could do for her, and that’s give a little dose of karma to the man that pulled the trigger.

One of them, anyway…I had my death wish, but Gibson got in the way of that. I know it sounds a little harsh, but that’s not how I mean it. See, I felt responsible for my wife’s death for too long…I honestly believed I deserved what I got, that I could even the scales going out with a good deed to sort of wash away my sins.

There’s an old adage that says living well is the best revenge…I think maybe living, *period*, is the best revenge. God knows it’s a lot harder than dying.

I’ll pay for my sins that way, I figure…that includes Korman. Still? I don’t think I’m really going to suffer many consequences, because there *is* a reward in all this…something to win, to deserve if I can manage it.

At the end of the day…there’s the blue-eyed guardian angel I’ve got at my shoulder.

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Muse: Thomas Grace
Fandom: Alias
Words: 269

Comments

[my_strappyshoes]

I like the sound of that Tom, blue-eyed guardian angel.

I know I shouldn't hack beyond your encryption, but I honestly was just doing it to read Peyton's and yours came up too. Plus it makes me sound good.

I didn't know about Korman though. You could have told me.

[idontspar.livejournal.com]

Y'know? The files are encrypted for a *reason*, Rachel...look at me, it's like talking to a wall...you're lucky you got that 'aw golly' look down pat, otherwise it'd be *real* easy to get pissed at you, Gibson.

But since you're here...yeah, it does make you sound good. That's 'cause you did good, period.

As for Korman...I'm sorry. Just wasn't sure you'd understand. Besides...the less you know, the better, and all that.

[my_strappyshoes]

Oh I know they are to keep people out, but I'm not anyone and you should know by now standard encryption is nothing to me, I barely register it these days. It's all on autopilot. maybe I prefer it when you have that angry look in your eyes. It's kinda hot.

I know the whole plausible deniability thing. I get it Tom, but I just thought maybe we had gone beyond that. I wasn't going to force it from you, but I would have still liked to have been trusted with it.