[EM] 34 - Doing It Differently

[idontreallyspar]

I’ve done a lot of things in my life that I’m not proud of...things that, if I had it to do over again, I might have done differently. I’m not sure if I would have changed the outcome, though...not really. It’s the nature of the beast, I guess...the situation I’m in.

You see...I have the unique, and I suppose dubious blessing of being in a place where all the biggest fuck ups of my life led to one enormously, fantastically great thing that I wouldn’t have if I hadn’t messed up, screwed up, and generally gotten shit on for most of my formative years.

I wouldn’t be here in the Agency if I hadn’t made a few bad choices as a kid...and I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I wouldn’t have Rachel if my life weren’t a walking disaster area. It’s as plain as that. Simple. Rachel is my one fantastic thing, and if you gotta suffer to get someone like that in your life...then I’m good.

Still...I think I might have done one *tiny* thing differently, looking back and knowing what I do now.

Prague...Rachel’s first time going into the field, going back to The Shed with Sydney in her ear and me as her backup.

When I lit Peyton’s cigarette...I’d have flirted with Rachel instead.

Muse: Thomas Grace
Fandom: ALIAS
Words: 228

Comments

[my_strappyshoes]

Oh it would have pissed her off, but me being nervous as it was about the whole situation? I'm sure flirty Tom would have put me on edge a bit more than I already was. Even if it would have gotten us out faster? I think I wouldn't have risked it. You should have just sucked it up Grace.

[idontspar.livejournal.com]

In case you forgot, I did suck it up...that's why I wish I'd have done it differently.

Anyway...you're hotter than Peyton. So shut up and leave me alone.

[my_strappyshoes]

I didn't forget Tom, trust me... it's never going to be forgotten.

I won't leave you alone though, that's never going to happen either.