[EM] 13 - Regret

[idontreallyspar]

There are certain things I regret about the path my life has taken. I regret causing so much trouble as a kid...I regret losing certain people in my life to circumstances that were beyond my imagining, not to mention totally beyond my control. I regret losing my wife...I mean, come what may there’s always going to be a place for her in my heart. I’ll always love her a little...without her, I don’t think I’d ever have learned to love the way I do today.

And it’s today that counts...today that takes all the regret away.

For all its trials and tribulations, my life brought me to this moment in time. Here, in an LA apartment, updating the online blog that I got talked into starting by the woman I love.

The woman I would have never met if not for all the regrets...all the twists and turns my life has taken.

It’s a hell of a thing, but for her I’d do it all again. I mean, if it was the only way we could be together. I think it’s safe to say that meeting and falling for anyone in our business is, inherently, a little screwed up, given what we see and do every day? But if you’re already a pretty screwed up individual, then it fits.

And let’s face it...people don’t get much more screwed up than me.

I regret that some bad things had to happen in my life, and I regret each of those tragedies and mistakes individually, but do I regret the journey as a whole?

Not for one single second.

Muse: Thomas Grace
Fandom: ALIAS
Words: 272

Comments

[my_strappyshoes]

So there's that thing you do again. I don't know how you manage to do it but you do realize you make me nearly cry everytime you do this. I need to toughen up or something, because I'm not running the risk of being the emotional one here.

[idontspar.livejournal.com]

More than once I had people in my life that I cared about and took for granted, and I lost them.

I'm not making that mistake again...not when I got it so good this time.

[my_strappyshoes]

I love you, you know that right? I tell you all the time right? Because if you don't hear it enough now? Oh, you're going to get sick of it.

[idontspar.livejournal.com]

Never gonna happen...but you know? You're *more* than welcome to try and tackle that challenge, baby.